awhwhwh hi so OKAY ill talk about one thing but the other i can probably talk about on like discord or something if you guys want.

so BASICALLY a little while ago my ex boyfriend decided to start communicating with me again. (which is like cool or whatever! he's pretty so i guess right??) it'd been a while since i had been on a vc with him so we did that but only in his discord server with his Friends or whatever! so uh, we were having an OKAY time. im a little awkward but thats only natural considering qwe hadnt talked in a while, but then! his like friend shows up!! stupid BITCH boy but he was, like, OKAY. it made me upset because he knew how to communicate So Well not just specific to my ex but IN GENERAL. so i made the joke like "oh you guys are dating lmfao" and they joked about it but STILL it just. made me so upset how WELL he could like talk?? like im so jealous?? like i can talk well TOO but he was like wordsmithing 100% or some shit???? it made me wanna DIE in the vc so i just kinda went silent for most of it while they watched videos LMFAO i felt kinda patheticafterwards

i dont feel bad and im not angry or anything like it was a good experience for me i guess but like! idk i guess i just got really distraught because 😦 i can't talk that well!!! and i Wanna talk that well!!!! and he knew just how to talk to both my ex and i and like AHGHFDH it was so overwhelming. my god i still THINK ABOUT IT